These past 2 days have been a joy of quiet. When the last stressor in my life departed in ugly fashion and the resulting lack of conflict became a reality the ringing slowly faded and I can’t hear it anymore even if I focus.
Joy of Joys!
It has been said that Tinnitis is a permanent thing but I have seen it ebb to almost nothing when stress has been reduced over these past 4 years, since it has begun. It came and went with the crazy and that last loathsome chapter is finished.
It could be that I no longer see it as my social responsibility to put my own needs aside to lift another; that I no longer feel it necessary to take ‘hits’ for others and provide ‘outs’ – oh, man, WTF was I thinking? I paid dues I didn’t owe and held myself back for far too long.
I used to think people callous and cowardly when they surrounded their fragile ego with a wall – I still do, but, I can take a page from their playbook and modify it slightly to incorporate compassion and service while protecting myself.
It’s a new day and I feel terrific. There is only opportunity in the next breath.